I Weep

I know that grief takes a while to heal.

I know that sometimes it takes a very long while.

I know that sometimes it never goes away and that healing never takes place and the grief becomes something you learn to live with.

I also know that it always changes you.

Right now the grief is fresh and the pain is raw so trying to sleep is senseless even though I feel exhausted from it all. Because of “Christ in me” I will get through this but for this moment, for tonight, I weep.

I weep for the family my friend leaves behind to live on without her. I weep because there is nothing I can do to help ease their pain. I weep because I know the gaping hole that her death leaves in all our lives that will never be filled again. I weep for the grandchildren that will never know the amazing person that she was and that they will grow up without her being here to love them as only she could. I weep because I will never be the same for knowing her and I weep because I will never be the same for the loss of her.

I weep because I miss my friend.

I weep because my heart is broken.

Lyrics:

I have often heard and read about that city
Where with Jesus we shall live for ever more
There’s a mansion in construction for my dwelling
And the streets of gold will run by my front door

I’ll have eyes that will never fill with teardrops
I’ll have legs that will never ache with pain
I’ll have hands that will never age and wither
And a heart that will never break again

All the eyes of the blind will there be open
And they’ll join the victory march with the lame
And the deaf who’s never heard the roar of thunder
Will rejoice to hear the Savior call his name

And I’ll have eyes that will never fill with teardrops
I’ll have legs that will never ache with pain
I’ll have hands that will never age and wither
And a heart that will never break again

Yes I’ll have eyes that will never fill with teardrops
I’ll have legs that will never ache with pain
I’ll have hands that will never age and wither
And a heart that will never break again

And a heart that will never break again